Oh hello good morning depression!

Hello, good morning depression!

So hello there! If you have wondered across this then I suppose you have either been surfing the net looking for answers, help or anything to aid you in dealing with depression or maybe help someone you know deal with depression? Or you may have just been looking for a laugh?
either way, Ive decided to write this as I myself have been recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder and Ive decided to not cower away and hide in the dark and gloomy corner, in fact Im doing the opposite! Im going to war with it!

When I first started to feel down I would always look at the internet for answers, never found any, but there were times when the only answer I could see was a permanent one...and not in a good way! (If you catch my drift!!)
I felt so alone, even though I had the most amazing support from my wife, family and friends, but in the darkest of times...it didnt seem to work. I felt bad for being me, bad for being down, bad for causing stress to everyone, basically just generally bad!

BUT WE SHOULDN'T!! We didnt ask for this condition did we? (If we did then it was definitely in the small print) but seriously, I hate my dark days....almost to the point I want to rip my own brain out and slap it across the face to start feeling so down. But obviously...we cant do that! Im rabbiting on again here but anyway Ill cut to the chase...

YOU ARE NOT ALONE! Things may be bad....there may be no silver lining but Ive started telling myself,

"LETS JUST SEE WHAT TOMORROW BRINGS" And I like that because you never know what is around the next corner, and if we ever did do something permanent to ourselves, then how are we ever to know? Believe me, i have been there with 'my plan' on how to end it all, but Im so glad I didn't. You wouldn't even be reading this now if I had gone through with it. And that's why I want to write this, to basically say that its nothing to be ashamed of, its not your fault and instead of looking for answers, lets deal with them here!
I cant tell you that tomorrow you are going to win the lottery, or maybe the love of your life is going to turn up....but you never know do you? And thats what I want to do on my face blog, get you thinking what Ive been thinking. "Lets just see what tomorrow brings".

Im also doing a video to accompany this blog so you can see me in person! (

which you can find here... http://youtube.com/depressionitsme

Would love to here your thoughts, comment etc!

Are you on twitter?? So am I......http://twitter.com/depressionitsme

Whether Im on a good 'high' day or a low 'bad' day, then Im going to try and write as much as possible on here. Instead of bottling it up, i am blowing it out. Sweeping it from under the carpet and into the air! If people see it, who cares, if they dont like it, who cares! I'm not offending anyone, just hopefully letting other people know that we can beat this!! And we shall!!!

Ive been suffering fro depression all my life but it was only recently that I discovered i was actually bipolar  And dont get me wrong, I dont like the label, but at the same time its made me realise that how horrible life can sometimes seem to be. And on those days I always feel so alone. So if you too are feeling like that, then just remember...YOU ARE NOT!!

Want to rant, then put it on here! I feel communication is the  key word - so go for it! Go on try it! Even if you want to swear!! (Just nothing that will get you investigated by the authorities please!!!)

Another great website to check out is this... http://www.thecalmzone.net/

Now, I really am going to go so yes, hopefully see you around, and lets join forces and kick these bad ass issues right where it hurts!!

Alex